So today was a bad day... kinda? I went to work today, I work 2nd shift 3pm - 11pm.
Well I have to be there at 2:45, so I was smoking outside waiting for 3 to come.
Three comes and I go in. I see a temp I never seen before.
I remember way back when, when I was new (A whole three weeks ago.)
So I ask him if he knows what he has to do.
He said he didn't so I showed him our foreman Dave J.
Well Dave told me to get him safety glasses and take him back to paint line with me.
So I get him glasses and take him back and kinda show him around.
The whole time I'm showing him around I think he looks like someone I know.
I didn't think to ask him his name.
Well about 7 1/2 hours later he takes off his hat to fix his hair.
Then it hits me who he looks like... Nick.
Nick is Kayla's (My ex) sister brother.
The one she was cheating on me with.
Well I wasn't sure it was him, and I didn't want to talk to him.
So after it was time to get off work I ask Dave P. (The dude that runs the paint line)
What the new guys name was. He told me it was nick.
So I told him that he was the dude that fucked my ex when I was with her.
He said that he already talked to his boss earlier and said that he didn't want him on the paint line.
I was thinking to myself KICK FUCKING ASS!

So I emailed kayla and told her that I loved her and that I missed her.
It was a while ago and I just got an email back a few days ago.
She misses me too. So today when I woke up she was on yahoo messenger.
I told her that it wouldn't work out, and she agreed.
But I told her I was going out with Sara, and that I loved her.
Well I told Sara what I did... We aren't really going out.
And she got upset with me for some reason. I don't understand.
So she probably won't talk to me again.
Two birds with one stone, go me!!!!
So I guess drinking is bad. It makes you not think clearly.
Damn it all to hell again. I give up... again.
I'll find someone else.

Looks like things are turning around.
I meet this really amazing girl.
Hopefully I'll get this job I applied at.
Then I plan on taking her out.
We might get a tattoo. But I'm not sure I want a new one, yet.
So I may get something pierced. I like hole better then ink.
But I need the job first so I can fix my car.
Life is just complicated, any boring!

So another birthday, it seems like theres so much to do now.
Life seems so simple as a kid.
Why do things have to change?
Oh well I'll live... Or die. I could care less really.
But I think I got a job planed out.
I want to work for myself and stuff.
And I think my aunt is going to help me open a store.
I'm going to get in to making cloths, I think.
Why is it that a chick wants a nice guy.
But if you're nice they want the bad boy.
Is it wrong for guys to have feelings?
Must be. Who really gives a fuck any more tho?
Maybe I'll just become gay. It might be simpler. lmao.

I been thinking about this love thing.
I desided I only loved Fle. And I forever will.
Kayla... I think I might have loved her in the begening.
But soon after I grew to not trust her.
With Fle everything was diffrent.
It wasen't about sex. It was about love.
I desided that yesterday.
And my dreams was filled with Fle. It hurt me so bad to see her.
Even If it was in my dreams.
So I know what I'm going to do, I just don't KNOW it yet.